Counting down to Bintan

Finally, after a very long-awaited time, I am going to Bintan in like the day after tml. Superb. And I'm not going to see all the stupid faces of the u-noe-who-people, those annoying, arrogant, people living in oblivion and bodoh sombong oh yar but some are quite good-looking though without a doubt (not the people in the abovementioned categories) for a mere 5 days. 3 days to go holidays, one day of leave just in case tired or what and one off day. Thank god for the holidays if not I can just explode. I hate the holidays season where all these stupid ppl only got out once a year and act damn big. One of my principles in life is if you are nice to me and I will be nice to you and vice-versa. Respect, kindness and the GST whatnots are only applicable if both parties work together cohesively. Is what they called karma, it takes two hands to clap and need I say more. If only I have the power, ability and whatever I would have done so seriously.

That aside, I wouldn't want to talk about all these nonsense, a waste of online place. Today is Saturday and for the first time, I felt as though I got nothing to do like no arah tujuan like that ar in which I have loads of things to do. What I meant is basically like plans to go out or something because I'm usually working on Saturdays and if I'm not working, there would be plans to go run errands or something so its pretty occupied or I would go and watch my sis train for silat. But today I just felt lost in translation. Too excited to go on the trip I guess. Yay so can't wait.

On a lighter note, congrats to my bestest gerlfren is pregnant with her first child, my bestest and beloved makcik also pregnant with her first child after so many her pening2 lalat (now its the real thing, before that was just the false alarm) and lastly to my another bestest gerlfren since sec one is getting engaged to her beloved bf. Wow so many good news all in one. Somehow or rather I feel all the good news are too overwhelming. My fellow comrades all are one big family, anak2 pak Yusof bin Ishak lah katakan.

Heres's a bit of history of me and this girl (dedicated to u gerl) whom is very close at heart. We go way back in sec one. Yes that long and looking back I have never regretted my friendship with her, not once and not ever. Firstly I know I have seen her before, way before we went to sec sch because she stay very very near me and she was in the sch next to my block so somehow I always see her and it didn't come across my mind that she would be one of my close friends that I had so dear to me. We share so many things in common or for that matter. She stayed sepelaung from me, her number is just after mine not any number but a number that didn't changed throughout the 4 years which is our index number. I was 14 and hers was 15 and we always sat beside, behind and in front of each other and I kinda grown up with her. Oh yes and since we are always side-by-side, we sat in the same row in science lab, me with my partner and she with hers. Funny we kind of explode the test-tube while mixing chemicals and we were supposed to pay our teachers but we just keep mum. And we are always talking to each other, singing, passing loose change between each other, getting caught dunno doing what things, getting punished and all. Those are the moments when one look back and one realise the importance of having good friends. Friends who cry and laugh and jog with you. We did so much things together back then, those carefree times. We run, jog and walk countless time be it from interchange to our place or city hall to lau pa sat.
Having said that, now we are all grown up and there is little time as we each have our own agendas but we do make it a point to meet up and just spend quality time with each other. I miss those long "A walk to remember" and a lot of other things from school. Like I said, we are very lucky we lived sepelaung from each other but then again we hardly meet. How ironic. Oh well life is ironic. The thing i'm trying to say is that these are the type of friends one grows old with, a priceless gem. I am glad you made the right decision 7 years ago and I can't imagine where our friendship will be hadn't you chose us.

Again, congrats to the abovementioned people on their good news. I am so happy for them. Albeit all the ups and downs, the good and bad, life still have to move on. Part and parcel of life. I think I better go to sleep now and start packing tml if not I would have enough time to pack. Me and my procrastination. Ciao.

"Without friends no one would choose to live, though he had all other goods."
Aristotle, Nichomachean Ethics

"I've learned that all a person has in life is family and friends. If you lose those, you have nothing, so friends are to be treasured more than anything else in the world. "
Trey Parker and Matt Stone, South Park, Prehistoric Ice Man, 1999

listening to iris by goo goo dolls

Dr Fin or Dr Derek Shepherd?

If you have to choose between Dr Fin and Dr Derek Shepherd, who would you choose?

I would definitely go for the former. Firstly, he's oh-so-good-looking, he's hot, he's not married (he was but she died due to some accident) and lastly he won't hurt the protagonist. The latter whom the protagonist called MacDreamy has dreamy eyes hence the name duh, quite good-looking but not as good-looking as Dr Fin though, he's married and most certaintly will hurt the protagonist called Dr Meredith again. He left her for his wife whom had an affair with his bestfriend. Ini namanya kawan makan kawan. So, Dr Meredith or Dr Grey chose the guy whom have hurt her and will continue to hurt her. Why is it that people have this tendency to go for people who have this bad boy/girl persona? A fren once said in life sometimes, having the bad girl/boy persona makes life more interesting or so she thought. I think its up to individual and your perception. Having said that, as it is, life is already complicated and I don't need that to further complicate things. Been there, done that and don't want to go there again.

On a much lighter note, I have indeed decided to miss the bus with reference to the previous entry. I think its for the best and if its meant to be then its meant to be.

Btw, I will be going away for a holiday. Yes a very long-awaited one and after finally someone asked me if i'm game enough for a holiday and I was like "Hell yah!". We are going to a nearby destination but that's good enough I reckoned. And the first person I have to inform is him. Yes him because knowing him and what he is definitely capable of if i don't reply to his msgs or even pick up his calls not that he calls me often, he would probably go berserk and start calling my house without a doubt and that leads to trouble. Now we wouldn't want that to happen, wouldn't we? And btw he's already staying a stone's throw away. So what, should I buy him a house-warming gift or give him a basket of cookies like Bree from Desperate Housewife to welcome him to our "Everyone-knows-everyone" Kampung but thank god its not as psychotic as Wisteria Lane. Still can't figure out why he chose this vicinity of all places. He said out of convenient, convenient my foot ar.

Since i'm turning a big 22 in a months and ten days time, I have lay some goals before I hit the even bigger 30.
They are(in no random order):
1. Get a degree probably in psychology or social psychology or in malay studies for that matter.
2. Get a license and of course a car, wolkswagen beetle would be sweet.
3. Travel around the world and visit all the 7 wonders of the world.
4. Do some humanitarian work or something.
5. Be a teacher. (I have somehow reached there, only 2 times a week).
6. Be a writer or columinist in the Straits Time or something.
7. Pay off my debts to my father worth of 6k plus with interest. Stupid school fees.

I really hope its achievable or maybe some if not all of it. Very ambitious yah I know. Maklumlah wawasan 2020 noh.

Another wishful thinking I have but a bit on the peculiar side are:
1. Be the damsel in distress where two heroes come and rescue...(hahaha me and a friend shared the same sentiments while watching it, great minds think alike mah)
2. Be the gf of one of the vocalis of the bands or the basis namely Fall Out Boy(basis-minus the tattoos and peircings, hate the sight of them), Good Charlotte(Vocalis) and etc. Coolness.

A few days ago, I did train and my it was the best time of my working life. So peaceful, got radio somemore but the only downside was that it was very quiet, too quiet I must say. And they had to deploy me to GC on a Saturday wee hours when there's too many youngsters coming back. Guess who I saw? An acquaintance, don't really know him well but I knew I cleared him before. Good-looking chap but he is indeed a tad too young and he resembles a former schoolmate of mine.

I saw two guys colleagues, beyond my expectations. They don't look the type and it taught me that never to judge a book by its cover and the phrase really lives up to its name. One of them is really the illegible bachelor kind of guy. Saper dapat dia, untung noh, kuat sembahyang ikut waktu, baik and a lot other factors cannot disclose too much. I think he is really every girl's dream man. He can be my knight in shinning armour who will swept me off my feet, rescue the damsel in distress. Hahahaha. I mean he doesn't sport tattoos(none that is seenable and I doubt he has one for that matter), piercings, coloured hair and if he is disciplined enough to do all the right things and differentiating between the right and wrong. The point i'm trying to say is destroying oneself, succumb to temptations that it going to ruin your life and it is irreversible. Drinking, taking drugs and living in a promiscuos life is not something you can call an achievement mind you. He/she who believes that is living in disillusion. Its more of a failure I should say. People do what they did i.e. destroying their own life is something they choose to do and not by force. Its mainly because of peer pressure, insecurities, in state of denial and the need to fit in among the peers. They are just conforming to what they believe to be "The lifestyles and trends of youngsters of today" which is deemed to be unhealthy and socially unacceptable. I, for once, do not think I stand to gain anything from leading this kind of life. Its more of wasting my life and my youth and it can never come back.

Life as I have emphasized is full of of mysteries and its ever-so-complicated. It doesn't happen the way you want it to happen. Bak kata pepatah, "Kita merancang, Allah menentukan". I am a firm believer as I believe everything good/ bad happens for a reason like it or not. And that there's always a blessings in disguise. Its how you see it, the glass is half-full or half-empty. I have seen a tad too many people wasting their youth doing all the wrong things and its not a pleasant sight.

Lastly, Congrats to Zul and Sofia on the birth of their son, Irfan Adrian. So who's next? I can't help but feel a sudden pressure as 2 of my gfs are proud mothers and one is coming up. And i'm still me here stagnant.

Dang, my dad is spending too much time with my new bestie and i'm hardly at home and I hardly get to watch but since its always repeating the same stuff over and over again, i'm ok with it.

Sorie for the super-duper long entry, I was doing ABL, DBL and I got bored so I penned my thoughts on paper there and since it was so not busy, I tend to write a lot due to the free time I had.

One swallow does not make a summer, neither does one fine day; similarly one day or brief time of happiness does not make a person entirely happy.
Aristotle

listening to thanks for the memories by fall out boys.