Friends

Before


After


After ten years of friendship and still counting, its this once in a while reunion cum gathering thats what I will always look forward to. So can't wait for the next outing in which I understand well enough that everyone else has a life and very busy at it. But come what may they are still the best group of friends I have ever had.I love you girls.

One may have a lot of friends but those that stayed with you throughout your ups and downs are only a handful. -shikinj

Listening to tanpa kekasihku by agnes monica

Believe it or not

It has been quite a while since I last blog. A lot of reasons namely time, the laziness and lastly procrastination. Latest update I am turning 23 in matter of days, not really something that I am looking forward to also. Reason being after turning a pathetic 22 last year with no achievements none whatsoever to my name and a lot of other things, I was kind of very sad. But this year would be different I reckon mainly because I am reaching there, achieving my things-to-achieve-before-I-turn-30 list.

They are:
1) Getting my driving license (almost there)
2) Getting my degree (almost there also, starting school in july)
3) Going around the world (slowly getting there, been to bintan and going to thai)
4) Meeting my knight in shinning armour (hahaha meeting and getting to know people)

So i guess by the time I turn 23 this year, I won't be as sad as I was last year with the abovementioned list.

A few days ago, someone read my palm. Yes of all things to do, he read my palm. Unfortunately, whatever that he said is coincidently true.

They are:
1) I am fickle-minded. (So true, my friends can vouch for that)
2) I think a lot or have a lot in mind. (True also, I think a lot about everything)
3) I am good at savings. (True enough, I have a lot of things to pay)
4) My life while I was growing up wasn't easy or something like that.
(More about the upbringing I guess)
5) I am good in getting numbers. (This I do not agree because I do not bet or gamble)

The so-called future list:
1) Even though I may not be successful before or up till now, I will be in future.
(More of business, I did ever thought of doing my own business but have yet to
decide what business to set up)
2) I will meet with 3 dangers. (Choy! That's scary)
3) And lastly whoever marry me will be lucky. (Hahaha, we shall wait and see)

I finally caught ayat-ayat cinta with the girls. Definitely love the film, very sad and I cried. I can't wait to get the novel. The film is so touching and if I were in the 1st wife's shoes, I would definitely did what she did. Kudos to the film and whoever watches and loved that film.

Bahawa cinta dan keinginan untuk memiliki itu berbeda (to love and to possess are two different things) -Maria, a character from ayat-ayat cinta

I think im in lurveee with...

I think im in love with Logan Huntzberger. That's his character name. Real name Matt Czuchry from Gilmore Girls. He is the charming, witty, smart, romantic and did I say good-looking too from the same ivy league Yale as Rory(cute couple). Btw Rory is a film major in real life. I was kind of mesmerized by his character i guess. I can't wait to buy season 6.


It's been a while since I last update mainly because of the firstly the comp exploding and lastly due to the excessive amount of OT the whole of last month for hari raya of course. First things first, sedekah al-fatihah to the dearly departed datuk sedara who passed away a few weeks ago. Poor man, he's been neglected by his family. He, who once, i saw at the mrt years ago looking lost maybe he was going to my house i guess. Kesian dia, sebak aku mendengar nasib dia. Upon hearing his death, I was shocked and suddenly the air stood still and stale in the morning. After a few days after my parents went to visit his wife at Batam, I can't help but cried for him. Cried because I just feel so helpless. If only I was rich, I would have help him or anyone who really in need of help.

Yesterday, I cleared my schoolmate, we weren't that close, just a occasional smile as many wud probably know by now the anti-socialness in me sungguh menyerlahkan. A conversation with him.
Him: Hoi! Kau kerja sini? Dah brapa lama?
Me: Dah 9 bulan dah.
Him: Kau dah kahwin? (Does my face scream marriage to you? Duh!!!)
Me: Taklah kau ni.
Him: Abeh single.
Me: Sadly but yah...
Him: Ada chance ar ni...
Me: ZZZZZZzzzzzzz...... (wth. so typical!!)

I think it has to do with me not wanting to take that leap of faith and gamble my life again. Maybe not now, not just yet. Oh well its not everyday you get to see your schoolmate. But then again thank god, it was just schoolmate and not some ex-bf. Oh god jauhilah not that they are bad or anythink but ermmmm seeing them is seriously the last thing on my mind.

Oh yar, these days my patience seems to be wearing off. If you happen to see my face not really in a gd mood or smiley2 mood means back off. I just scolded a passenger as I wanted to close the counter, off lights, put cone 3 times and still people coming in without feeling any guilt. The fuming mad me at the 3rd time putting the cone shouted,
Angry Me: Lu tak tahu tengok lampu eh? Saya dah matikan lampu and letak cone pun. Tak nampakke?
Him(an apek): Sorie2 gua tak nampak...
Me: Kepala otak kau ar. Tu pun tak nampakke.
After going back inside, another passenger talking to the bf in her mother tongue, "No wonder no one goes in this counter."
Me: Yah coz i already close counter put cone and off lights. Duh!!! People need to go to the toilet u noe...
Them: Rilek2.
Me: Rilek otak kau.

Oh god, its 3am. Sheesh. I have to sleep now if not I won't be able to wake up for sahur. And btw wats with people who cannot tahan fasting when they are well enough to do that. I mean are they like what 6 years old? No offence to anyone. Ciao.

Stay single and be miserable or stay married and wish you were dead.
-sepet

The video actually more of the song which i so like is "Last Night I Say Goodnight" from force vomit.

We won...yippeee

Yippee!!!! Finally after a lot of the stressful and trying times, we managed to get some form of recognition after a year of graduating, completing the film. We won gold for art direction, silver for the short film category and silver for cinematography at the recent crowbar awards. Hahaha finally all our efforts are paid off. Many thanks and congrats and good work guys to those of you who helped directly or indirectly. Hope more awards to be grabbed. Lastly, kudos to us.

Latest movie reviews by me:
-click: Super sad that I cried watching it. Very the nice. I love it.
-Music and lyrics: The storyline not as nice but the music nice. I so love the music called "Way back into Love". I love Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore too.

That's all for today, I don't feel like blogging much. Enjoy the three music clips. They are "Way Back into Love" by Hugh Grant & Drew Barrymore and "Title and Registration" by Death Cab for Cutie. Lastly Comptine d'un autre ete : L'apres midi by Yann Tiersen (If only i can play the piano and I have no idea where I have heard this before but it is so familiar). Nice songs, love them.

Strange occurences happening at work

Yesterday was so the dejavu day seriously. Firstly, I was doing exactly at all the same counters as the previous day so I had to swap with someone as she is PW. Secondly, I cleared like the same people, same faces, same timing and same counters somemore. Wah lau suddenly I feel life flashes right in front of my eyes like as though I have to rewrite history, alter some events like OMG so in the movies. So the dejavu and some do remember me...like my counter partner said we are like feeling superstar. While doing at the last counter, some names caught to my attention. They are:
-Doggie Dan (like who would name their son doggie sia)
-Rocky anak Batu (mampus dah rocky anak batu lagi n dun they carry the same meaning)
-Billy anak Bulan (??? i took a second look seriously)

A few days ago, I had a peculiar dream. Something spooky of nature which I do not intend to elaborate more. Oh yar I read an article on Reader's Digest the other day about dreams.

"Dreams are a way for the subconscious mind to communicate with the conscious mind. Dreams help people work through the day's emotional quandaries. It's like having a built-in therapist."

On a lighter note, my maternal family the big one is featured in the papers but thank god there's no group photo featured just a photo of the family in some game which has my mum, dad, aunt and cousin faces. As to thank god no family group photo is because I am not in it(kesian muka aku seorang aje takde coz tak dapat leave punya pasal). And there is some quote by my mum mcm betul aje. Hahaha.

Life is full of risk. Love is a gamble. It takes a lot of strength and courage to achieve them both.
-Shikinj

Congrats to Iska and Liana

Batch 08/06 ++

First and foremost, I would like to congratulate Iska and Liana on their big day. Iska aka Daddy Iska or the Abang Long as he is the eldest among us in woodlands for that matter got married last weekend. We only got to know two weeks before the day. Apa dah...itu pun mahu secret2 ke? I am so happy for him. Next time should force him to bring his tuan rumah. He got married in style man. Nice wedding dais, nice car, nice food. Ada class. But too bad I didn't manage to follow him back to his place and meet up with the rest of the people. Nevertheless I did enjoyed myself at both places Iska's and Liana's.



Anak2 Pak Yusof bin Ishak

And as for Liana, my bestest girlfriend of whom I have known for almost a decade celebrated her engagement. It was one of the best gathering I would say as the whole group came which makes her very happy I concurred. She even wanted to take off her baju and sit down talk with us. For the first time, I kind of felt happy and sad at the same time. Happy of course she met her knight in shinning armour who can make her happy. She's happy I am happy. Sad because of the fact that all of us have grown up and we have our own lives to lead. Sad because she can no longer be my impromptu friend to call at anytime to accompany me to have a walk or just talk. We can no longer go to WM to catch a midnite movie anymore. Slowly one by one of us, the gerls whom I can safely say grow up with are settling down. I am happy for them but its just feel so emotional. The group of gerls whom were once so carefree, single and independent are all wives, mothers and someone's fiancee. How time flies. Almost a decade and to some people it is no big deal but to me it surely is. How high are the probability that you can have and stay friends all ten years. Hardly rite? And most of them are not even my classmates except the four of us, huda, liana and harifah but we grew close and strong through these years. I am so thankful and grateful for their outmost friendship and my eyes are teary. I am glad we became friends. Love u guys.


1B, 2B, 3E2, 4E2 aka budak2 express(dah besar2 pun semua)


After almost a decade of friendship, you tend to realise that these are the friends that one should treasure and appreciate. They grow up with you, share your happiness and sadness. No amount of money could come close.
-Shikinj

listening to hari ini esok dan seterusnya by nirina zubir

Secondary school days are the best days of my life. Do you agree?

Another good news. Suddenly, another friend whom I could swear that he was single pi canang yg he is getting married on the same day as my bestfren's engagement. Dang, dilemma melanda aku sekejap. And to top on the list of my dilemmas, both are on around the same time. How can I go to two places at the same time? On one hand, I so want to follow the pihak lelaki ke rumah pengatin perempuan, mesti best and kecoh yg zura n shah. My other guy friends are all driving and I don't want to be left behind. On the other hand, my bestfren is also getting engaged and of course I wouldn't miss the whole world for it and that's the reason why I applied leave on that day.

I had this crazy idea in which I shared with my friend about asking a favour from my other guy frens to come and pick us up to go to our fren's engagement in which it is a tad too ridiculous. And I read my fren-who-is-getting-engaged-this-15july which is so the sad. It seems that everyone else is/are getting hitched/married/engaged/having children that is so pressurizing. Yes I am indeed happy for them but everything happening so fast that you can't even bat an eyelid so to speak. It seems that it was only yesterday that I entered secondary school and meeting all these great people. People whom I call friends, true friends. Friends like these are hard to find. Suddenly I feel that I am losing all my friends one by one. Losing them as they all each have their own commitments and stuff. How I wish secondary school life stood still so that I could have that few more years. People say secondary school life the best days of one's life. Indeed I agree. I miss secondary school so much mostly the people. I believed they are the warmest friends I have ever met. There are actually 10 of us the gerls in which out of these ten, only me and my other 3 frens are classmates. Its not that we do not have other friends and they are our other classmates, we do but decided to go separate ways at our best interest.

Talking about friends and secondary school, I went to watch Transformers with my former classmate. He is the first new friend I meet in sch. Another friendship that goes way back then. He is weird at times and he always disturb me and all that. The four of us sat in the middle of the class with the OHP in between and we would always push here and there, throw crumpled papers around and always end up getting scolded by teachers. Of the four years, I had so much fun, experience and I really enjoyed there. We were the noisiest, naughty and lazy class. We had the great time be it detention, the regular tawaf at the parade square or just a simple meal with the great company of friends and after CCAs where we would go get lunch and ice-creams. Back to talking about him, I wasn't even that close to him in school and we never have outings together not even hari raya. It was the most-awkward-weird-outing-even-though-we-know-each-other-for-almost-ten-years. He had the same sentiments too. I just couldn't figured out why we never hang out. After almost ten years later then we start to hang out. We took his bike what it feels like so very the big and I was struggling to hop on the bike because i'm short. And he was like saying hold the tank if not i would fly off. Me and my takpelah takpayahlah, aksyen bukan aper. The moment he start moving, ah ambil kau, nasib baik aku sempat pegang waist dia kalau tak melayang ar aku. Siul aje. Too used to my dad's bike with a box to lean. But so far, the outing was great not so much of an outing just a movie. Hahahaha. I think I should start putting my introvert side aside and bring the extrovert out. I think I was an extrovert, something happened somehow along the way which I do not have the slightest clue as to why I changed.

Like I said, these are the friends that have an impact on me and I have of course great moments to remember. It's not the number of friends that matter, it's the friendship and how one chose to spend it. This is so sad. I'm so sorie, din meant it to be sad and so the melancholic. I sometimes wonder if life would be as fun had I gone to another school, maybe an elite school so to speak. I reckoned so.

And to even make matters worst, I have just turn 22. And wow thats so fast. A few years down the road, i will be what 30. Oh cialat if that happens. I miss secondary school, i miss us, i miss the berok gays, the gerls, the fellow cadets, the teachers, i miss 1B, 2B, 3E2 and 4E2. Oh yar i miss ginza plaza too.

Hidup ini bak putaran roda, ada kalanya kita di atas dan ada kalanya kita di bawah. Keangkuhan and iri hati akan menjatuhkan seseorang itu. Ingat Allah dan jangan jadi bagai kacang lupakan kulit. Kawan-kawan sekeliling yang membentuk dan mencerminkan perwatakan seseorang itu. Pilihlah kawan yang baik dan ia akan membawa kebahagian dan kesenangan.

-Shikinj

On a lighter note, I think I found a new love or I have fallen in love with Jared Leto from 30 seconds to mars. Now then I realised he's hot and OMG i love his voice too.

listening to the kills from 30 seconds to mars

A day with Team Alpha

Went out with the people from Team Alpha and SMD. There were like 16 of us man. That's like a lot of us and we are still missing quite a number of people. We are like the "unlawful assembly" people I can say. Nonetheless, it was fun and even though it was my first outing with them and it was a bit awkward at first but I think its ok. First time mah of course a bit awkward what and I do not really know these people that well also. There are so many people I realised with bakat terpendam. They can really sing and boy they sang well man. I felt so inferior as compared to them. I reckoned they must have start pretty young and probably grew from a singing background or that their parents are those who loves to karaoke at home. I never used to like going to karaoke but after a few trips, I tink its ok and can be fun with the right crowd. Oh well what can I say, I'm an introvert and anti-social so yeah this is the first few times going to these places of interest.

Having said that, I kind of like being in the team and in my team. I wouldn't want to trade in for other teams no offences to people from other teams but thats how I strongly feel. I wouldn't mind going out again with them and getting to know them. It's been great and they are great. I had fun. But the only sad part is that many of the old staff are transfered out and I didn't have the opportunity to get to know some of them. Looking on the bright side, there are the newer staff in which there are lots of them to get to know.

Its been a few days since he last messaged me which is good no doubt. My prayers have been answered. I figured he possesses telepathic skills. He like can read me like a book. Hahaha. Its good to have a piece of mind.

Happiness is when you have all the friends and family who sticks by you through the good and bad times and accepting for who you are.
-shikin j.

listening to give it up to me by timbaland feat nelly furtado and justin timberlake